Viability! We still have a ways to go but somehow reaching this point feels like a milestone to me. Baby, you have to hang on for a while longer but so far, you and I, we seem to be doing ok.
Pregnancy Symptoms: Ok, tummy has definitely popped. But still most people don’t seem to notice – I suppose my normal clothes are forgiving enough to hide a bump. I’m slowly shifting into maternity clothes (mostly just leggings – enough of my regular clothes fit that I might not need much else). And clothes I buy now should ideally work post-partum as well. Also maternity pants/leggings/PJs are sooo comfy. Stretch marks magically appeared a couple of weeks ago. Ah well, it happens. And in more unpleasant symptoms I’ve been getting some heartburn (which as far as I can tell is entirely related to position) and some lightheadedness (low BP? I can’t tell. All I know is its definitely not sugar related).
Gestational Diabetes: Sugars are under control. With a lot of work in diet/exercise. I went through a funk last week about the whole thing – mostly I’m feeling trapped at home because going out is so difficult. I carry my own food even when I go to friends’ houses. I can’t eat out easily. Even something like shopping is hard because I need to eat every couple of hours and there’s nothing in most cafes/restaurants that I can eat. I keep telling myself that it’s only a few more months. Once baby is here, I’m strapping baby on and going out for an ice cream. And waffles.
That being said, this experiment of the last couple of months has made it clear to me that this is my ideal regimen. But right now it’s too restrictive for the long term so I’ve been thinking about ways to make it more practical post-delivery.
It’s funny because in someways I’m healthier than I’ve been in a long while. My Hba1c is at 5.4 — lower than any other measurement of that in the last 4 years (which had been stable at 5.6). I’m back to my yoga-days flexibility (umm, except for forward bends. Tummy makes that a bit hard). I’m losing weight, sorta. My weight itself is the same as it was 12 weeks ago. Which means baby (and placenta) are gaining weight but I am losing weight if that makes any sense. And over the last week, I’ve noticed other signs that are consistent with this theory — my bra cup sizes are a bit too big, my back fat is almost gone, my arms are a tiny bit slimmer. I used to be worried about it and so I check in about each time with my OB but she’s pretty happy with things. And we’ve been doing growth ultrasounds and baby’s in good shape.
Emotionally: Enh, I’ve been better. The GD has been getting to me a bit. As is the huge piles of work both at work and at home. I’ve been arguing with Hubby because I feel like he’s not taking enough off my plate wrt setting things up for baby. Yes, it’s early. But we have the space for the stuff for now and not doing it is just extending my checklist and stressing me out. I feel like even though baby is due in early August, I’m mentally planning for an early arrival in July and so want everything in place by June. And there’s a huge amount of my non-work time that goes into management of my diet/exercise and I don’t think he quite gets the mental load of all the management.
My patience for unasked for comments (which was always low) has gone even lower. A few weeks ago, I sent a (I thought) nice pic of myself+tummy to my family chat group. M-i-l’s comment: “Cute tummy. But you look thin.” Which was really unnecessary and possibly well meant but after I spent hours each work working out my diet and more hours exercising all to ensure health of the baby with as little medication as possible and an enormous amount of discipline to keep all this up — that was not appreciated. My diet/exercise is more carefully thought out and calibrated than hers (or hell, anyone she knows).
My mom (who has diabetes) took a cue from me and is doing a very similar exercise. She’s seeing fasting numbers that she hasn’t seen in years. And realizing that she might not need half the meds she’s on. Together… well, I’m sure there are friends of ours now who are like “don’t pick up or we’ll hear another monologue on carbs and sugars.”
I think we’ve become huge advocates, not for following this diet exactly but rather using your body’s cues to guide your diet/lifestyle. Not everyone is the same, and other than some broad principles, I don’t think one person’s optimization helps another.
Baby: And last but not least, a check in on baby. Baby is strong. He’s super active and moves/kicks a ton. I still can’t differentiate between the two. Est weight is 1lb 10oz. In 66th percentile for size. So in spite of all the single artery cord, GD, everything.. he seems to be thriving.
We told one of our close family friends that we were expecting and in the conversation, it came up that I got the flu during the pregnancy. And he said the nicest thing – ‘That the baby survived the flu and is doing ok now is a really good sign for the baby being strong and healthy’. And it feels a little like that. This little embryo is a triumph over so much for us. You have a lot to live up to, little one!